Recently, I took a trip to San Fransisco to attend my beautiful cousin’s wedding. I’ve never particularly liked being in big cities. While I wholeheartedly appreciate their existence, they aren’t the place for me. The energy is chaotic, my body feels high and tingly and it’s extremely uncomfortable. The discord of city life runs at a much louder frequency. You feel bombarded on all levels. It becomes difficult to think clearly. Your senses are overloaded with stimulus – both natural and unnatural. A cramped city, such as San Fransisco, is a mecca for a circular pool of un-recycled energy.
I traveled with my Mom and Sister. The three of us drove in the car together. As we began to approach the city, I felt an uneasiness come over me. The concrete jungle was a sounding board for energy to be reflected and transmitted. My mind started to wander, which is extremely out of character. Thoughts, of which were not my own, started appearing across the reel of my mind. I began absorbing every thought and feeling that the cities inhabitants had. It was unnerving. I felt extremely queasy. My stomach twirled around like a ballerina inside my throat. I didn’t know if I wanted to laugh or cry or scream like a mad man. I wanted to do all simultaneously. I closed my eyes, and took a deep breath. I actively removed myself from the chaos of unabsorbed and mutated energy. I envisioned myself high in the blue sky overlooking an open tundra, full of rolling hills and golden grass gently dancing in the wind. I became a pine tree, deep in the forest. I rooted myself into the Earth and felt the magnetism of our planet. I exhaled.
When you become one with everything. You intimately see, feel and know what it’s like to be the other. Because there is no such thing as separation. We all exist simultaneously in various appearances and awareness. This understanding allows you to actively experience yourself through different physical and non-physical forms. There is an energy, some call it the Zero Point Field, some call it consciousness, some call it vibes – they’re all different ways of conveying the same thing.
When I opened my eyes, I felt the bombardment of energetic disarray flood my senses. I immediately put up a shield that separated myself from everything else around me. I envisioned a bright clear light rising away from my body a few feet. I saw the vibrations of energy rippling onto my shield and bouncing away. It felt amazing. I could breath. My stomach immediately unknotted. My lungs relaxed and respiration centered with ease. My mind returned to it’s normal state – clarity. For almost 2 entire minutes I reveled in my ability to shield myself from the toxic whirlwind of energy that was physically, mentally and emotionally making me sick. Yet, shielding wasn’t the right experience for me in that moment. I started thinking about vibrations and how each object is intrinsically connected to everything else. We are all directly influenced by one another’s energy. I started thinking. Perhaps I were to pass by a radiant soul emitting pure love, if I remained shielded, I would sever that connection and transmission. Or perhaps I passed someone or something that was in desperate need of love and compassion, they wouldn’t be able to feel my presence. We are all connected and this shield, while wonderfully calming, was cutting me off from the whole. Now, it is quite possible that I could have created a different block which would have allowed only love, joy or compassion to freely flow in and out, but I knew that I needed to experience all the feelings. I needed to experience all of the vibes and perspectives of our consciousness.
I lovingly took down the barrier and felt everything come rushing back. We parked the Subaru, I internally adjusted myself, and took off after my family who had already left to take in the tiled artwork of San Fransisco’s stairway. With the awareness of Ourself, whenever the city vibes got too disruptive, I would go into another being, from the trees to the oceans and mountains to the prairies. I experienced a lot of nature during my stay in the city. In addition to this technique, I physically grounded myself whenever I could. I stood barefoot on grass and dirt. I stood with my hands placed on trees, plants, flowers, marble platforms etc. I was connecting my field with a naturally grounded energy that was in harmony with the pulse of the universe – and it felt good. All ease and clarity instantaneously resumed.
We spent the afternoon eating in an amazing little Mexican restaurant called the Matador. We ordered delicious margaritas. Alcohol has amazing effects on reducing and relaxing the high levels of energetic stress on the body and mind. After indulging in delicious food, we got ready for the wedding and set off.
The reception was staged at the Westin St Francis, in Alexandra’s Room – the 32nd floor of the building. The venue is encased with ceiling to floor glass windows overlooking the bustling city below. You have a bird’s eye view of San Francisco and the surrounding area. You can peer down into Union Square, look out across the bay and witness both the Golden Gate and Bay Bridges. The rolling foothills were illuminated with pinks oranges and purples as we watched the setting sun over the Pacific Ocean. To say it was exquisite would be an understatement. Humans create some absolutely gorgeous pieces of art.
We arrived early, before most of the guests and wedding party. I walked the perimeter of Alexandra’s and admired the mess of human creation below. The room was fairly empty thus creating an easy flow of energy throughout. I sauntered about the exterior of the room and took in everything I could. I noticed the concrete below, the bricks and towers, the asphalt, railways, cars, and metal. All of these surfaces are massive energy conductors. They radiate and transmit the conscious collective of the zero point field. I observed very little greenery. I could count the number of trees on two hands… and the only rooted trees I could actively find were in Union Square. The city contained no place in which the excess of energy could effectively get grounded. It bounced from one sounding board to the next metal generator. It expanded, picking up new scents and signatures with every positive emission it came in contact with. The uneasy tension we experience when in large cities was blatantly apparent. Every living being that walked, rode, drove, flew, or skittered by has it’s own unique vibration. It’s own special energy signature that effects everything around it – both in and out of space/time. When this energy is radiated along building sides and down asphalt corridors it comes into contact with other individual vibrations, thus the new signature may simultaneously be blissful and fearful. This whirlwind of energy bombards all city life. I imagined how different a city would look and feel if there was open ground, free plants and boundless opportunities to connect and reground oneself with the natural vibrational pulse of the Earth and Universe. One word tickled my tongue: relief.
I walked across the dance floor to the open bar and gratefully asked the tender for a glass of red wine. I took a sip and felt the anesthetizing flare of the pungent liquid flowing over my taste buds and down my throat. As more guests filled the room the energy rose. The time of peaceful observation was rapidly evolving into a hodgepodge of noisy and boisterous activity. One could visibly see the difference being transmitted as more guests arrived and exchanged the conscious pulse of the room.
I went back to our assigned tables, ornately decorated with long burning candles and beautiful autumn floral arrangements and sat down. As more folks entered into the party space, the more energetic commotion ensued. It was uproariously perfect. This collection of giddy wide-eyed people exuded an uneasy joyful nature. I expect the uneasiness was in part due to the underlying emotions of everyone gathered in the open room. I tried my best to engage with my surroundings, but I’ve never particularly enjoyed the pandemonium that is present at large events. This does not mean I did not have a good time, for it was quite the opposite. But when you see, feel and understand energy on an extremely intimate level, it can be difficult to remain focused on any particular thing – for there is so much hustle and bustle one’s attention is constantly being re-directed. I was enjoying the unifying experience of our combined wayward energy.
When the bridal party entered the room everyone directed their energy upon them. There was a drastic shift. Suddenly, harmony danced throughout and you could almost taste joy on your lips. When we focus our attention on specific subjects or topics we have the ability to create eternal ripples of awareness and feeling. Our thoughts, when centered and honed (especially for long lengths of “time”) have an overwhelming ability to heal, cleanse, rejuvenate and love. Whether you can see energy or not, these vibrations (conscious waves) are actively playing a role in everyday life. From the quantum level to the physical realm the sound of laughter transmits and transforms its surroundings. It is frequently said there is “power in prayer,” “when two or more are gathered…” these age-old sayings hold an enormous amount of truth. The individual and collective conscious is directly effected by “thoughts and prayers.” There is power in numbers. When we awaken to our magnificent connection to the whole, we understand that even a single “solitary” person is the entire universe. Therefore those individual thoughts, become the collective consciousness.
As the evening glowed with loving jubilance the average person could tangibly see and feel our collective love for the newlyweds. Our energy was gleefully radiating throughout and within each being present. If one looked closely, they would even see the window’s of Alexandra’s glimmering to the beat of our unifying music for the newlyweds, David and Mary.