Expanding into Non-Dual

Throughout my life, I’ve desired to share my unabridged thoughts and viewpoints with the world, but I refrained because I didn’t want people to lash out upon me. There are many reasons people may do this: fear, misunderstanding, it challenges their beliefs, the unknown may appear daunting and their evolution of consciousness hasn’t expanded yet, etc. However, I’ve been “in the point of no return” for many years and I feel the utmost necessity to divulge my experiences. The intricacies and elegance of the trajectory I am on deepen and expand at a pace that defies the common definitions of space and time.

My next few posts are going to be my direct experiences. They will not necessarily be published according to the order in which they occur. These are the highest truths from a perspective that is Sara. Although the deeper I rise, the less Sara I become… and I am absolutely IN LOVE with Our evolution.

I understand many of the topics I am going to be addressing may be a handful. I urge you to have an open mind. One’s ability to comprehend the universe within them is directly correlated to their capacity of openness. Ask yourself deeper questions. Discover the unknown. These are my calls to consciousness.

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I have a beloved friend whom frequently takes both roles of Student and Teacher. To my knowledge, he is the one human who understands me the fullest in this world. He is the first one I desire to share my experiences with. Among an infinite list, he is my sounding board and confidant. I am elated we sauntered into one-another’s lives 5 years ago. I am eternally grateful for the existence that is you.

The experience I’m about to describe happened almost 2 years ago. There have been MANY new experiences since then.

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Lucid dreaming is a state in which the dreamer is aware they are dreaming. There can be many different degrees of lucid dreaming. The event in which I am about to describe is, in my opinion, either a new level of lucidity or an entirely new realm which has evolved upon the dream state.  For lack of a new word which adequately describes my experience, I am going to remain with the term “lucid dreaming.”

Over the years of my numerically short life, I have intimately felt the powers of positive and negative. That is to say, forces that emit either a loving or turbulent energy. When I was a little girl, I would frequently feel the oppressive force of what some may deem the “supernatural” ie evil. I was brought up Catholic, thus my understanding was limited to God (Man in the sky), Heaven (ultimate life after death- perfection) and Hell (evil underground tomb where all things bad reside). My dreams would often reflect the positive and negative energies I felt but interpreted as heaven and hell.

About 2 years ago, I had a “lucid dream” where Good and Evil are at war. It was chaotic. It was set in space – as we interpret our solar system to appear. This was another realm where angels and demons exist. In this vast openess, I was witnessing the battle ensuing. Angels were being knocked down. Demons were falling. As I was watching, I needed to know more. I said, “I know there’s good and bad. I know this realm exists. But where is This realm originating from? What is the source that created this dimension?” I watched as all of the angels had a magnificent golden-yellow sheer BRIGHTNESS radiating outwards from their beings. I myself had the same energy field. The angles would never “fall” during the battle. When one got “wounded” the others energy field (for lack of a better word) would wrap itself around the “wounded angel” and they’d all pick “it” up. The angels are not gender specific. But rather more of a being presence that transcends human gender roles. I reached out and the greatness of our energies connected with one another thus creating one giant being instead of the individuals that were previously present. This is the moment I wondered about the source of this realm.

As soon as “my” question was conceived I was taken “up” to the source. God itself. There was no “good” and “bad.” This was Non Dual. It was the most incredible experience I had had thus far. It was absolute knowing, feeling and being. It was absolute truth. God appeared as this vast energy Source. More powerful than anything… ever. For years, I had intimately known about non-dual and the game we’ve all been enlisted to play. But I had yet to actually witness Source. There are no words to describe it… only feelings… which are much more powerful. The feeling was of complete ease and peace. The most pristine peace imaginable (or unimaginable). This was Perfection. My physical form ceased to exist. It was as if I was looking into a mirror at myself. A mirror which reflected creation. The creation of absolutely everything – words, paintings, thoughts, feelings, nature, civilizations, energy, positive, negative, EVERYTHING. I was God witnessing God.

When I “woke up,” although I was never really asleep in the normal sense, all I wanted was to talk to my dear friend. I often live in places with zero cell reception or internet so I had to wait. Since everything happens exactly as it should, this was fine. When I was finally able to call him and relay my most recent experience it felt wonderful being able to confide in another human who understands the process happening and didn’t think I was a complete kook.

I am fairly reserved with who I tell these experience too, seeing as how most people are completely unaware of the nature of creation and God Ourselves and therefore My experiences would inevitably be taken in a different manner based on others level of consciousness. But it’s becoming impossible not to share. To keep quiet is to deny and limit growth and expansion.

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“If you’re going to try, go all the way. There is no other feeling like that. You will be alone with the gods, and the nights will flame with fire. You will ride life straight to perfect laughter. It’s the only good fight there is.” – Bukowski

For years now, I’ve conveyed to a few close friends how quickly “I” change. Most people are aware that you are different at 18 then at 25 and so on. But what I’m referring to is MUCH different. I can consciously feel myself changing drastically day to day and often hourly. Now, these are not always monumental changes. But as my awareness grows and I expand upon thoughts and ideas (often from witnessing how the earth/universe interacts with itself) I’m very much a different “person” when I go to sleep than when I woke up. I am married to the evolution of consciousness.

I’ve always desired to interact with others who are similar to myself. Others who live in Our Consciousness together. Compared to the general populace, so very few of us currently exist. People who intimately understand that we are all God and we are all the Same, yet beautifully unique in the human experiences we’re having. And still, the deeper up I explore, the less human (the less Sara) I become.

A couple weeks after my “lucid dream” I underwent (or “upper”went) a 14 day long-haul where I experienced everything from God’s perspective. It was as if I was looking down at the human experience I was having without actually being immersed IN the human experience. It was the most incredible thing. Yet, it was somewhat interesting because I didn’t feel the same emotions or connections that “Sara” would normally have. I had the acute awareness of being profoundly proud of everything I had created.

I would visually see “Sara” floating down the river (literally, I was zen boating/innertubing/white water rafting the Trinity River) yet I was radically in awe at the river I had created, the trees and shrubbery along the banks, the way the light of the sun interacted with the natural world. I felt a deep sense of pride for the intrinsic majesty of all my creation. I felt love and admiration for Sara as an individual. I felt all of me displaying itself in so many unique and perfect ways. I felt the many perspectives of my creations from the way water felt to have Sara atop, to the breeze blowing through the leaves, and the way sunlight felt when it warmed everything in my path. In all senses of the word, it was divine.

I, Sara, had to try with great concentration to actually experience the high-adrenaline nature of the events I engaged in. I had to focus with all my energy to actually have the human experience. Needless to say, I spent 99.99% of those 14 days from God’s (our) true perspective.

Over the past 2 years, my experiences have intensified, elongated, and transformed. Exciting events regularly occurred to the point where they’ve become my permanent state. The human understanding of Ultimate Truth, Source, Love or God is evolving. I frequently feel a ball of energy inside my chest that is so giddy with excitement I feel as if I may actually burst. I use this energy and send it to every living thing… ever. I am consciously raising vibrations. “Sara” is filled with infinite love. Everyone and Everything already has the ability. I’m excited to share in our experiences.

With infinite love and laughter,

“Sara”

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Darling Sweet Darling

Darling, sweet darling

Dare you undress

Laying there naked

While I caress

 

The soul of your body

The soul of your being

The soul of our love

While both hearts are beating.

 

Darling, sweet darling

I want you stripped down

To the core of what makes this great world spin round

You in I

And I in you

Forever together like two pieces do.

 

Darling, sweet darling

Oh don’t close your eyes

This is the part with no surprise

With hands interlocked

Searching for more

To the shore of existence

The shore of before.

 

Darling, sweet darling

Laying there stripped

Of the eyes of tomorrow

While showered with bliss

Turn over your body

Your mind I will kiss

It’s the essence of you that I’m going to  miss.

 

Darling, sweet darling

Our memories are gold

It’s your mind not your body that I longed to hold

Laced in a time

Where your skin played the part

I refuse to compete with the mimes of your heart.

 

Darling, sweet darling

It’s love that I need

The love that the forests of yesteryear bleed

Where thirst is quenched by rivers with ease

And hunger quieted by the rustling of leaves.

 

Darling, sweet darling

Oh why can’t they see

That their valleys are shackled with man made debris

The cities ignite with a rush of great fire

No wonder they’re all so bleak and so dire

My mountains our mountains they sing and they preach

To heavens and galaxies far beyond reach.

 

Darling, sweet darling

I want you exposed

The flesh is as worthless as all of your clothes

With eyes full of longing

With eyes full of hope

Tomorrow perhaps will be just a joke.

 

Darling, sweet darling

Time brings anew

Moments of clarity sparkling with dew

Refreshed from our history

Refreshed from your past

Maybe just maybe these moments will last

The cage has been lifted

The sky turns to clear

I wonder how long it’ll take you to hear.

Dust to Dust

“The night was empty. Endless turns down roads that never ran out. The wheels spun under gravel that hung in the air like my plea for you. My heart still bleeds for a love long taken. Buried underneath the weight of a dying sun my car sped further into the darkness of a black hole. The pull was unrelenting as I let my foot lay heavy on the pedal of our love. Every corner began a new cry. A new plea. Lost in this galaxy as you watched from above. Tears clutched my chest with the vengeance of gravity weighing down my earthly body. I need you. To hear your voice. To feel your love. As I drove further up the spiral staircase towards the heavens a soft glow faintly emerged from behind the mountains of my sorrow. With a tender embrace Luna wrapped me in her loving arms. Cradling her lost child of the night. I let my tears flow as the river below raced towards the open sea. It was you. With the undeniable strength of a thousand moons, pulling me tightly into our still beating love. It was you. With the safety of a father’s embrace. It was you. With the impossible love of past, present and future. For a love like ours never dies. Cradled in the crescent shine of our memories I felt your soft hands upon my shoulders. Taking me deeper into the soothing rays of what we used to be. As I peered upwards, my moon, our moon beckoned me closer and the radiance she gleamed only grew brighter as I let the horses of my engine run wild. I hear you my love. You are with me. Watching from above with a seat reserved by your side. You will always be here. Because a love like ours never dies. The cosmos knew that not even a setting sun could tear us apart. For we spoke in the tongue that Luna herself bled and as long as the darkness could be overturned with light we would be together. Even on those stormy nights, where my cries echo down canyons cut by dying stars I know you are there. Always and forever, just as you promised on your deathbed. For love, true love transcends all. Even in the agonizing debris your buried body can shine through gravel and pierce my soul. Love, no matter it’s heartbeat, is always alive and thriving. Death, therefore is not actually dying, but rather the transformation of a soul being set free in the universe of our hearts desire. With every last beating breath, I will choose love. Because love is the one true form capable of bringing us together. From dust to dust… carried through space and time to a place where you and I are one in the same.” Sara C Fry 

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Innocence of a Child

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“He sat with the innocence of a child while the sky around him parted and spoke of his emergence from the shadows. The edge of darkness lingered below as the sun shown its warmth upon his back as if it was tenderly teasing the blackness from the comforts of trembling heights. These are the days where you carelessly let your feet dangle on the borders of past and present. Reflection now wears the armor of healing rather than the familar loincloth of culpability. Beams of light bathe your body in a gentle embrace of freedom while your echoed voice etches the walls of history with the retrospection of your youth. Red and orange dust swirls around the narrow bends of the steep walls below. There it remains, sanding down your rough edges until all that stands is a silky sillouette radiating the vitality of the clear skies overhead. The past is a building block of which to evolve and grow. You are who you become, not who you’ve been. The unknown is a dangerous place to reside but nothing makes us feel more alive than a life lived on the crumbling sandstone ledge of mystery. Let the sun illuminate the dark canyons of yesterday. There is truth in adventure and darling the purity we find ourselves in soars with open wings above.” – Sara C Fry

Sierra Mapping Project on Kickstarter

A couple weeks ago I went public in my launch of Sierra Mapping Project. I immediately had many people express their excited interest for mapping every trail in California’s iconic High Sierra. Friends approached me with the idea to launch a Kickstarter for SMP.People realize the need for an accurate, but most importantly current inventory of our trail systems.

A couple days ago I launched the Sierra Mapping Project Kickstarter Campaign. In just a few short days, the community has backed over $650 out of the minimum goal of $2,500. The campaign will run for 40 days… of which we’re now down to 35.

I founded Sierra Mapping Project out of a dire need to have current and accurate information on the trails ALREADY in place in the Sierra Nevada. There were many instances when I would be going into the backcountry and the information I was receiving from our forest service was terrible at best. Now, this is through no fault of their own. Budget cuts, current funds running low, and a lack of personnel has made it near impossible for our beloved FS to do their job. Thus I began scheming my brain child… Sierra Mapping Project.

The main goal of SMP is to provide current conditions and an inventory of our cherished trail systems FOR FREE to the community. These are OUR trails and we should have access to this information. I will be GPS’ing EVERY trail in the High Sierra and creating a GPS track which will be available for download free of charge for YOU. In addition to a GPS track, you will have access to elevation profiles, water sources, and current conditions.

In recent years, our treasured Pacific Crest and John Muir Trails have received an overwhelming amount of traffic which can be detrimental to the trail system. With the sudden influx of day hikers, backpackers, and horse packers the infrastructure of these trails have been degrading rapidly. By GPS’ing EVERY trail in the High Sierra it is my hopes to relieve some of the congestion off the JMT/PCT and get people into other areas that our Sierra holds for us. By bringing a voice back to these networks were securing our trail systems and showing the government that we need to have these areas available/maintained for use. The more people that show an interest in our backcountry the bigger impact we can have of protecting OUR land for not only us but future generations as well.

The money raised from the Kickstarter Campaign will go towards GPS instruments, GIS software, non-profit fees, basic operational costs such as gas, batteries, gear repairs, etc. Sierra Mapping Project will be a non-profit and will be around for years to come, collecting current conditions as well as updating old information. This is THE SAME information that our Forest Service is supposed to be collecting, but since they’re unable to it’s time for the community to step up to the plate and preserve the wild land which we hold so dear. Remember, Sierra Mapping Project will be a tax-write off!

Another aspect of Sierra Mapping Project is to scout for new loops, routes, and thru-hiking alternatives. I am the biggest proponent of wild and adventurous exploration. Therefore, all routes will be minimally documented with the exception of a short summary to uphold the integrity of off-trail adventure and purity.

I am working in collaboration with Tom Harrison; California’s great cartographer who produces top-notch maps. I’m sharing my findings with him to make his information as accurate as possible for backcountry enthusiasts.

I leave tomorrow, May 12th, on the project’s first ~350 mile venture. I will begin at South Fork Campground, travel up through Mineral King, meet up with the High Sierra Trail and take that to the PCT at Bighorn Plateau, from there I’ll stay on the JMT/ Sierra High Route until I get to Devil’s Postpile where I’ll take our San Joaquin River Trail back to Clovis.

I’m jazzed to be able to share my findings with YOU! The Sierra’s are my backyard and I’m beyond thrilled to be sharing her beauty with the community. It’s going to be cold, snowy, and steep, but the mountains are calling me home.

Sierra Mapping Project is for the public by the public. Please share with everyone! The more people who know about this meaningful and worthwhile project the better. Anyone who visits the High Sierra will benefit from Sierra Mapping Project. Become a backer today!

A huge thanks to Sierra Mapping Project Sponsors – the dedicated folks who see the need for this venture: ULA, Western Mountaineering, Bedrock Sandals, Tom Harrison. Sierra Mapping Project is actively seeking sponsors… it’ll be a tax write-off!

Click: Kickstarter- Sierra Mapping Project

Sierra Mapping Project Video

Have a beautifully organic day,

Sara “BloodBank” Fry

Founder of Sierra Mapping Project

A Year In Review

This was an update I made to my Facebook Group: Living Life and Testing Limits – Human Powered:

“Well folks, this group was in need of an update. I’ve changed the name and description to include all of my endeavors. I coined the slogan “Living Life and Testing Limits” about 2 years ago to describe not only my website, but also my personal lifestyle in general.

2014 was an incredible year for me. It began with a thru-hike of the San Diego Trans County Trail, followed by an EPIC thru-hike of the Continental Divide Trail. When I began long-distance hiking via the Pacific Crest Trail I thought nothing could ever compare… and I was right. No other trail does compare, but the CDT stole my heart. The sheer beauty and her ever-changing nature makes me weak in the knees. I experienced some of the most spectacular country while traveling through NM, CO, WY, and MT. I finished the CDT in a little under 5 months on September 25th at 6:13pm. Now, I definitely had my fair share of health issues on that hike (more so than ever before) but I enjoyed every second of being able to be out in such a majestic landscape. Seizures were extremely prevalent the last 3 months, but I was blessed to be hiking with a great group of individuals. I’m sure my stubbornness was incredibly hard to deal with at times, but being docile and giving in to weakness never accomplished anything. Albeit, the seizures got incredibly hard to fend off towards the end and I was having a bout of them roughly every other day… if not daily. But I tried to the best of my ability to not let them control me.

Upon returning from the CDT I thru-hiked the San Joaquin River Trail (again) setting a record of 4.5 days to travel about 150 miles. Granted there are only 2 times the SJRT has been thru-hiked and both have been by me. Regardless, it was another great achievement.

The start of 2015 was wonderful! I spent the entire first 2 months backpacking. A group of good friends (family) went and thru-hiked the San Diego Trans County Trail… again (it’s an annual hike/family reunion). Upon finishing I hopped in a car and drove cross-country to hike the 250 mile Ouachita (pronounced: Wash-i-Taw) in Oklahoma and Arkansas. It as a wonderful little trail and some good exposure to hiking back East.

Upon returning, I went into dermatology for a few suspicious spots that had been appearing within the last couple months. I had 4 surgeries and am still awaiting the outcome. Some of you may know that because of the TBI I sustained 8 years ago I do not numb for surgeries. So it’s never very fun going under the knife. However, these past 4 incisions weren’t as excruciating as my previous 11 surgeries so that’s always a plus!

A few weeks ago I put out my official announcement of thru-hiking the Great Himalaya Trail in Nepal come April 2016. There are less than 10 people in the entire world to thru-hike the high route in the same self-supported fashion I’ll utilize. I’m stoked to take on this new challenge and see the beauty of the Himalaya Range.

I also announced a perimeter swim of Lake Tahoe come late July/August. This 72 mile swim will also be self-supported. Although the water will be 55-60 degrees I will not wear a wetsuit or utilize fins. I’ll tow all my food, camping gear, camera, water etc in a dry bag behind me that’s attached to my body. I’m planning on this endeavor taking 7 days at 10 miles/day.

On May 12th I’ll begin a ~350mi route I created up in the High Sierra which will utilize the SJRT on the return leg so I’ll technically be able to “walk home.”

I’ve got a few other plans up my sleeve as well… so stay tuned.

This life is about truly living and following your passions. It just so happens that mine include being out in nature and testing my body in a way that has long-since been forgotten and overthrown by the complexities of “city life.” I updated the description of this group to “Human Powered.” I fully believe and cherish the beauty of approaching adventure under the will and skill set of our own bodies. I love the feeling of accomplishment that I receive knowing that I got someplace through no outside help. Our bodies are capable of incredible feats if we harness our dormant abilities.

I hope you had a great weekend! Keep spreading the love!

Sara “BloodBank” Fry

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Late Night Ramblings

“I was forged with a burning desire to experience as much as I allowed myself. No longer was the question of fathomability present. For I had felt the impossible and the illusion of limits had been dissolved. My mind had shifted and I knew that I possessed everything there ever was. The choice was mine, yet strangely it had already been solidified centuries before. The knowledge of “how far can I take this” had evolved into “how deep can I go” and because of that pristine truth I was forever open to the unimaginable.”

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