Throughout my life, I’ve desired to share my unabridged thoughts and viewpoints with the world, but I refrained because I didn’t want people to lash out upon me. There are many reasons people may do this: fear, misunderstanding, it challenges their beliefs, the unknown may appear daunting and their evolution of consciousness hasn’t expanded yet, etc. However, I’ve been “in the point of no return” for many years and I feel the utmost necessity to divulge my experiences. The intricacies and elegance of the trajectory I am on deepen and expand at a pace that defies the common definitions of space and time.
My next few posts are going to be my direct experiences. They will not necessarily be published according to the order in which they occur. These are the highest truths from a perspective that is Sara. Although the deeper I rise, the less Sara I become… and I am absolutely IN LOVE with Our evolution.
I understand many of the topics I am going to be addressing may be a handful. I urge you to have an open mind. One’s ability to comprehend the universe within them is directly correlated to their capacity of openness. Ask yourself deeper questions. Discover the unknown. These are my calls to consciousness.
I have a beloved friend whom frequently takes both roles of Student and Teacher. To my knowledge, he is the one human who understands me the fullest in this world. He is the first one I desire to share my experiences with. Among an infinite list, he is my sounding board and confidant. I am elated we sauntered into one-another’s lives 5 years ago. I am eternally grateful for the existence that is you.
The experience I’m about to describe happened almost 2 years ago. There have been MANY new experiences since then.
Lucid dreaming is a state in which the dreamer is aware they are dreaming. There can be many different degrees of lucid dreaming. The event in which I am about to describe is, in my opinion, either a new level of lucidity or an entirely new realm which has evolved upon the dream state. For lack of a new word which adequately describes my experience, I am going to remain with the term “lucid dreaming.”
Over the years of my numerically short life, I have intimately felt the powers of positive and negative. That is to say, forces that emit either a loving or turbulent energy. When I was a little girl, I would frequently feel the oppressive force of what some may deem the “supernatural” ie evil. I was brought up Catholic, thus my understanding was limited to God (Man in the sky), Heaven (ultimate life after death- perfection) and Hell (evil underground tomb where all things bad reside). My dreams would often reflect the positive and negative energies I felt but interpreted as heaven and hell.
About 2 years ago, I had a “lucid dream” where Good and Evil are at war. It was chaotic. It was set in space – as we interpret our solar system to appear. This was another realm where angels and demons exist. In this vast openess, I was witnessing the battle ensuing. Angels were being knocked down. Demons were falling. As I was watching, I needed to know more. I said, “I know there’s good and bad. I know this realm exists. But where is This realm originating from? What is the source that created this dimension?” I watched as all of the angels had a magnificent golden-yellow sheer BRIGHTNESS radiating outwards from their beings. I myself had the same energy field. The angles would never “fall” during the battle. When one got “wounded” the others energy field (for lack of a better word) would wrap itself around the “wounded angel” and they’d all pick “it” up. The angels are not gender specific. But rather more of a being presence that transcends human gender roles. I reached out and the greatness of our energies connected with one another thus creating one giant being instead of the individuals that were previously present. This is the moment I wondered about the source of this realm.
As soon as “my” question was conceived I was taken “up” to the source. God itself. There was no “good” and “bad.” This was Non Dual. It was the most incredible experience I had had thus far. It was absolute knowing, feeling and being. It was absolute truth. God appeared as this vast energy Source. More powerful than anything… ever. For years, I had intimately known about non-dual and the game we’ve all been enlisted to play. But I had yet to actually witness Source. There are no words to describe it… only feelings… which are much more powerful. The feeling was of complete ease and peace. The most pristine peace imaginable (or unimaginable). This was Perfection. My physical form ceased to exist. It was as if I was looking into a mirror at myself. A mirror which reflected creation. The creation of absolutely everything – words, paintings, thoughts, feelings, nature, civilizations, energy, positive, negative, EVERYTHING. I was God witnessing God.
When I “woke up,” although I was never really asleep in the normal sense, all I wanted was to talk to my dear friend. I often live in places with zero cell reception or internet so I had to wait. Since everything happens exactly as it should, this was fine. When I was finally able to call him and relay my most recent experience it felt wonderful being able to confide in another human who understands the process happening and didn’t think I was a complete kook.
I am fairly reserved with who I tell these experience too, seeing as how most people are completely unaware of the nature of creation and God Ourselves and therefore My experiences would inevitably be taken in a different manner based on others level of consciousness. But it’s becoming impossible not to share. To keep quiet is to deny and limit growth and expansion.
“If you’re going to try, go all the way. There is no other feeling like that. You will be alone with the gods, and the nights will flame with fire. You will ride life straight to perfect laughter. It’s the only good fight there is.” – Bukowski
For years now, I’ve conveyed to a few close friends how quickly “I” change. Most people are aware that you are different at 18 then at 25 and so on. But what I’m referring to is MUCH different. I can consciously feel myself changing drastically day to day and often hourly. Now, these are not always monumental changes. But as my awareness grows and I expand upon thoughts and ideas (often from witnessing how the earth/universe interacts with itself) I’m very much a different “person” when I go to sleep than when I woke up. I am married to the evolution of consciousness.
I’ve always desired to interact with others who are similar to myself. Others who live in Our Consciousness together. Compared to the general populace, so very few of us currently exist. People who intimately understand that we are all God and we are all the Same, yet beautifully unique in the human experiences we’re having. And still, the deeper up I explore, the less human (the less Sara) I become.
A couple weeks after my “lucid dream” I underwent (or “upper”went) a 14 day long-haul where I experienced everything from God’s perspective. It was as if I was looking down at the human experience I was having without actually being immersed IN the human experience. It was the most incredible thing. Yet, it was somewhat interesting because I didn’t feel the same emotions or connections that “Sara” would normally have. I had the acute awareness of being profoundly proud of everything I had created.
I would visually see “Sara” floating down the river (literally, I was zen boating/innertubing/white water rafting the Trinity River) yet I was radically in awe at the river I had created, the trees and shrubbery along the banks, the way the light of the sun interacted with the natural world. I felt a deep sense of pride for the intrinsic majesty of all my creation. I felt love and admiration for Sara as an individual. I felt all of me displaying itself in so many unique and perfect ways. I felt the many perspectives of my creations from the way water felt to have Sara atop, to the breeze blowing through the leaves, and the way sunlight felt when it warmed everything in my path. In all senses of the word, it was divine.
I, Sara, had to try with great concentration to actually experience the high-adrenaline nature of the events I engaged in. I had to focus with all my energy to actually have the human experience. Needless to say, I spent 99.99% of those 14 days from God’s (our) true perspective.
Over the past 2 years, my experiences have intensified, elongated, and transformed. Exciting events regularly occurred to the point where they’ve become my permanent state. The human understanding of Ultimate Truth, Source, Love or God is evolving. I frequently feel a ball of energy inside my chest that is so giddy with excitement I feel as if I may actually burst. I use this energy and send it to every living thing… ever. I am consciously raising vibrations. “Sara” is filled with infinite love. Everyone and Everything already has the ability. I’m excited to share in our experiences.
With infinite love and laughter,