Becoming Whole: Embracing Emotions, Masturbation and Sex

The true self has many depths and differing emotions of which are not only our gifts, but also a pathway of which to follow. These aspects of the self, when fully welcomed, have the combined ability to transform and awaken higher states of Consciousness. There is a major shift taking place. People are understanding the true meaning of Consciousness and the “miraculous” wisdom everyone already has within themselves.

Humans have emotions for very specific reasons. Many times we try and “hold ourselves together” by shutting down and stuffing our emotions so they “don’t interfere” with our daily lives. We believe that our feelings are a hindrance and thus must be kept at bay. When we ignore these precious teachers we further exacerbate our problems. We create more disharmony and chaos. These suppressed teachers begin to morph and reappear in extremely unhealthy ways. They surface in many forms, from physical pain to mental and psychological blocks as well as an unhealthy backlash of emotional health and well-being.

The escalation of emotions such as suffering, animosity and hatred are the augmented brothers of pain, frustration and anger that have morphed into unhealthy states of expression. When we leave ourselves out of touch, we create space for diseased (dis-ease) feelings to spread like wildfire and infect the whole. Humans fail time and again to recognize the monumental divorce from Self that inhibiting our emotions creates. Our emotions are to be used as paths or tools for us to deepen our understanding and wisdom. When we disconnect from these beautiful mentors, from the very essence of ourselves, we become wracked with stressful conflict which appears in all aspects of our lives.

To be whole one must acknowledge, accept, experience and grow with their emotions. When we inhibit the release of our feelings we unknowingly disassociate from ourselves. This suppression creates many problems and we become unable to identify with not only the true self, but also with others. By preventing the full expression of our true Self we stifle our growth as individuals and the growth of the whole, the collective community – consciousness. Emotions are the keystone of expanding into the true Self. When we fully allow ourselves to go into states of sadness and grief, frustration and anger, happiness and joy we allow the depth of love to take hold. Love then has the ability to transform and mold itself into pure creativity born in the heart of Love itself. To forbid ourselves the vibrant expression and release of emotions is to quell the grandeur of life itself.

Emotions are so much more than feelings. Emotions are vibrations. Vibrations are energy. Energy is the building block of everything in the universe. To be fully rounded means to have an awareness and understanding of the inherent elegance each emotional vibration creates -each emotional vibration YOU create. Understanding means that you allow yourself to fully FEEL what is actually taking place in the universe. To feel the vibrations of each specific emotional energy signature. When we intimately identify with our vibrational frequencies we are then able to comprehend the magnitude and reach our thoughts and feelings span.

To identify and have an understanding of others, means that we must be able to See and Feel reality from many different viewpoints. That is to say, we must acknowledge and give validation to the many different forms of reality people live in. We do not necessarily need to agree with these outlooks, but we must acknowledge their existence and that others truthfully believe in there logic (or lack thereof). In properly taking the stance of other, we must see contrasting perspectives as if they were indeed our own reality. Some realities hold more Truth than others, but we must not de-validate them. Everything has it’s specific purpose and space. We grow and evolve from experiences. The evolution of consciousness is the understanding and inclusion of all trains of thought which infinitely propels us deeper and further.

Emotions are fundamental in understanding the universality of All life. This means embracing ALL parts of the human – Mind, Body and Soul. These are not separate aspects of the Self, rather parts of the whole that cannot effectively function without one another. Emotions are the gateway to healing not only the psyche but also the body. Feel the totality and depth emotions bring. Embracing our emotions also means embracing the physical nature of ourselves. When we come from a loving and peaceful environment we are able to express a much deeper physical love. Love with the self – masturbation and love with your partner – sexual intercourse. It is important to experience the full and well-rounded loving sensations that physical love brings forth.

From an early age I was told masturbation was bad. I was taught that it was a sin and should be looked upon with great shame. This never stopped me, but it did create a false sense of guilt and embarrassment around the subject for the first 26 years of my life. I knew in my heart that this concept made absolutely no sense. How was it possible to engage in something so “holy” (sex) yet when you were alone (where you should be the most whole) you were made to feel self-pity and disappointment. Love is present in all dimensions. Love is meant to be experienced as an individual and as a couple. Yet, there have been entire generations taught that in the act of self-love you are disgracing yourself and generating shame. Unwise are those who teach against Love. It is extremely misguided to divorce love of yourself from feeling the purity and wholeness that true Love is capable of conveying. Just as emotions contain many different facets of wisdom, physical love does as well. When we allow ourselves to physically FEEL and experience Self Love we deepen our understanding and become more in tune with not only ourselves, but Love as a whole. We can then take that Self Love and share it with our partner to create an even more unified and infinite experience. Love is truly boundless.

Yet, the fundamental aspect of life – Love is viewed as taboo. When we are taught by a society and culture that physical love (love itself) is something to be shameful of, we create discord that manifests in unhealthy behaviors. These behaviors appear in forms of rampant disregard for the unity of sex in which people seek out as many partners as possible. People are recognized as status symbols. We feel unworthy of love. We view sex as something and someone to conquer. We disassociate and silence our emotions – emotions which are intrinsically woven into Sex aka Love. We learn to dislike and even hate our bodies- the very space in which we live.

Our views of sex and love have been so bastardized that we use physicality to sell products. This further fuels separation and isolation of the mind, body and spirit as well as the isolation from our fellow humans – humans which are also experiencing the infection of seclusion. Yet, that is the exact opposite of the core of the universe. Everything is connected. Everything is woven flawless together in harmony. Humans themselves are perfectly and boundlessly whole, yet we don’t teach that. From our broken analyzation of emotions to our disembodied stance of Love, we must rise through the fog of conditioned disorder if we want to FEEL the immaculate grandeur of the space we truly inhabit.

A well rounded individual recognizes the many different human aspects of oneself and uses them to create a marriage of feeling, understanding and wisdom. We were created with many wonderful aspects of ourselves so we could deepen our knowledge and awaken the consciousness within. Let the falsities dissolve so you can fully embrace the lovingly infinite Self. When we evolve past our fears, emotions and love deepen to an infinite depth. We are then able to use all of our experiences as a diving board into Truth – God Ourselves.

The following experience happened October 19th 2017. It was the beginning of another week-long state of absolute full-fledged amazingness. This is one of many examples of what we can witness if we fully embrace Ourselves.

 

ORGASM – October 19th 2017

An orgasm is a pure release of energy. A creation of beauty and love, meant to be felt – truly felt within every fiber of our being. Tonight, before I began masturbating, I wanted to meditate and see if I could experience the orgasm from a different perspective. I wanted to experience the state of pure ecstasy and interweave it with our innate Godhead Self. I wanted to feel the love and creation of energy in a different dimension – the pure dimension.

Immediately, upon having the desire of witnessing from Our Godhead view, I was taken “up.” Which isn’t particularly any specific direction, but rather a state of being while simultaneously experiencing the human physicality of Sara and manual stimulation. I began to See all of the emotions and feelings that were accompanied with Love. I can visually See emotions, which are vibrations, which is energy. I see energy and that inadvertently means I see emotions. The energy I See takes on the visuals of 3D shapes and designs full of the entire light and color spectrum. These are the most intricate and perfectly ornate geometric designs one could imagine. They are fractals of light. Fractals of love. The have no beginning nor end. They are constantly being created. They ebb and flow with infinite perfection.

The easiest way for me to describe what I was “looking at” aka witnessing, while I was Loving Myself, is for you to imagine a light bulb. Now cut a tiny hole in the bulb so you’re able to peer into it and see the inside of this larger than life dome. The dome seems to have no edges, it was infinitely “round” (without really being round). This bulb had the most incredible acoustics, of which transcends sound barriers and were able to be applied to “acoustical visual fields.” The inside of the “infinite lightbulb” was the most amazing color. It was the most vibrant purplie-neon-hot pink-fascia-hot purple-neon purple color. Needless to say, it was a REALLY BRIGHT “pinkish-purpleish.” The only other time I witnessed this hue was when I had my “pure witness of nothingness” experience.

There were no physical structures of form inside the “dome.” Only designs, which constantly changed and evolved in the most intricately complex way. These patterns helped create the “exterior” of the bulb. Now, imagine the old screen saver that computers used to have. The screen saver was a rotating design which ebbd and flowed and changed colors. Except these designs didn’t change color. The theme was my extra bright purplie color throughout. “I” was looking “upon” the “globe” and watching these intricate designs “come out of thin air.” They had a 3D or 4D structure. That is to say, they were not painted on the walls of the “globe” (for it had no walls to begin with) but they kind of manifested and the “walls of the globe” became the designs intertwined with one another. These designs of joy and love constantly created new complex patterns which came out of the first design. Constantly changing, expanding and creating themselves anew. They would fold on themselves and create multilayered designs. It was absolutely stunning!

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A few years ago, I watched a video showcasing Cymatics – which is wave phenomena where the vibrational frequency of sound creates modal vibrational images or designs. In the video, a metal plate is hooked up to an energy source. You sprinkle sand onto the surface and adjust the level of hertz being transferred by cable onto the metal plate. The higher the energy, the more complex designs each vibrational frequency creates. The sand then, depending on the vibrations of energetic frequencies turns into “perfect” images.

Video Showcasing Sound into Images

The designs and patterns “inside” the infinite lightbulb globe were very similar to that images produced using a Cymascope (the device that captures sound/vibration images) except they were MUCH more complex. The patterns and designs I witnessed often arose in moving helix’s such as spirals and DNA strands. They generated emotions of love and joy which became manifest in visual form as designs. The further into my orgasm I got, the more complex the designs I was creating became. They ebbed and flowed with the same frequency of the beginning of Sara’s orgasm. They became more complex at the peak of each wave of bliss then subsided during the low point of the wave.

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Then, before climax…the easiest way to describe what I saw was a few days ago humans were able to witness and detect the energetic vibrations of two stars that collided in the universe over a 130 million light years ago. Before impacting with one another, they danced in an orbit moving faster and faster until their collision sent shock waves generating outward. My orgasm was visually similar. However, I wasn’t watching “stars” per-say. I was watching designs ebb and flow and visually get closer and closer to each other until they finally collided and created the most awesome display of pure color – Purplie-Pinksih color with even more intricate designs than were previously evolving and self creating. It was absolutely amazing. The waves of my physical body experiencing the pure pleasure and release of energy was as if the orgasm itself was a creation of energy. A direct vibration upshift like the two stars colliding and sending out their own unique brand of energy (which Earth was just able to witness a couple days ago). I laid there for a moment, reveling in the most simple and complex nature of what I had just created with my orgasm from a meditational visual witnessing perspective. I opened my eyes, exhaled rather deeply and had the most wonderful smile upon my face. I reached for my partner and with a giddy voice told him how that was the most spiritual experience of orgasm and creation I had ever had.

Video of 2 Stars Colliding 130 Million Light Years Away

I absolutely love this and what’s happening to me. The more we fully embrace our true Self the more Aware we become. It’s as if I’m unlocking/ really SEEING for the “first” time the beauty and intricacy of the creations that I very well AM creating by being human etc. The visuals remained after my orgasm but in a much more diminished quality of witnessing experience until I drifted off to sleep.

There are many ways and paths to expanding our consciousness. Embrace them all. Embrace yourself. There are no limits. We are capable of absolutely anything and everything. When the collective consciousness rises, Love leads the way. Everyone and Everything is love itself. I am You. We are God. You are Loved. You are Love.

This Orgasm of Love began a week long multi-dimensional state that had many AWESOME experiences. I’ll post these in the coming days.

With infinite love and laughter

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3 thoughts on “Becoming Whole: Embracing Emotions, Masturbation and Sex

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  3. We are on exactly the same wave of exploration Sister!!! Love your post. It felt good to read my own journey in your words. and get a few reminders for blind corners I had. Yes to full-fledged anger without shame. And if you have not tried masturbation with crystals (jade egg, selenite wound, etc.), you should give it a try. The energy of the crystal amplifies the potential for self-love expression.
    I loooooooooooooooove YOU! 🙂

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